Im having a huge shift in thinking- is this a revelation or a breakdown?

So, ive grown up in quite a conservative family, im 19 and im not socially awkard or anything but i dont really go out, socialise, etc. I only have and see mates at uni, and dont have a boyfriend. In fact, as everybody around me has gone through strings of boyfriends its dawned on my that I never have, and part of this is because of my conservative upbringing (my parents had an arranged marriage and there is a lack of general knowledge in my family re: the dating scene) i have never gone clubbing or anything like that despite the legal age being 18. And all of a sudden, I feel like I'm missing out. I dont want myf amily to think im rebelling, but living at home I feel very restricted. I feel like I need to become more independent, less influenced by my families values, because if I dont start living my own life I suddenly fear I will regret it and blame my family for my inactions. Is this normal? Its just hit me over the past 2 days and im suddenly starting to loose sight of who I am. I feel like I identify myself far too much with my family/what my parents think, and I need to start living my own life. Can anybody offer some advice? I dont want to push my family away to the point where they start hating me, but I need to find a better balance than this because the current arragement just isnt working anymore. Why could I live like this fine when I was at school, but now I'm at uni these things bother me so much? Things like 'what will my parents think if I go out with such and such' or, 'is going out for the whole day with my friends bad, should I be feeling bad right now' or 'how late is too lae to be staying out'. Things like this.. its really crushing my social life